Question by CL: I’m so depressed. It is all piling and I can’t bear with it any longer.?
(1) I’m having personal problems with my dance company. I’m in this dance company in school that gives out scholarship to the students. I’m getting 30% of that scholarship. The thing is I think I’m overweight for it. We are more of ballet type of dance. Before someone from our company was removed because she was fat. Our mentor is always reminding me of my weight. By the way, I’m 132 lbs and 5’3″-5’4″ in height. I’m really trying my best in loosing weight but sadly I can’t do crash diet. I have this sickness, I’m not sure what it is exactly, something called like gas pain. I’m not sure because the doctor in the emergency just said it and I was still dizzy in pain. Anyways, the thing is crash diet is a no no to me. But I’m still doing it despite the effects because I really want to get thin. My Mom told me that I’m perfectly fine but hearing that from my Mom I think it is not true. I’m very conscious of my weight and I’m getting all shy when I see my reflection. Because all of my fat goes to my thighs and butt which is ridiculously ugly. Exercise is no good for me as well because I don’t have time for real. I’m a graduating student and work is ridiculously piled up. I’m also worried with the dance company because I don’t want to be kicked out because of my weight. I’m also drinking dietary supplement pills to help me loose weight but I’m very disappointed because instead of loosing weight I’m gaining them! I’m eating yogart and oatmeal like crazy. I’m only drinking warm water as well.    Read more...